do you ever just wonder if there’s someone who secretly thinks about you and wants to talk to you but doesn’t know how
My sister told me a soul mate is not the person who makes you the happiest but the one who makes you feel the most, who conducts your heart to bang the loudest, who can drag you giggling with forgiveness from the cellar they locked you in. It has always been you.
It sucks so much to know that the person you want doesn’t want you
Looking back on my first love I feel privileged to have loved so deeply when I was so young. Some might call me crazy because I fell in love my junior year of high school but it was so worth it. The relationship was a complete disaster but he truly taught me how to love someone else for the first time in my life. There never goes a day where I don’t think about him and how much we have both changed. I see now that we never could have worked but through the love and the relationship I became the person that I am. I used to want to graduate and follow him off to whatever college he went to because I had no plans for the future. I wanted to pass time together and live our lives out. Now that I’m off at college I see that was the wrong path for me, I was meant to be here. I probably won’t ever love someone as strongly as I loved him because he was the first person and I can now love for the rest of my life because of him. Thank you Larry for showing me what true love is. Maybe you didn’t feel it back, you’ve told me that before but I no longer care about the petty things between us. We have both turned into such wonderful people and I am beyond blessed to call you a friend. I can’t wait to see the paths our lives take separately because we are better off without each other than we ever would have been together.
I will always have a place for you in my heart though.